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I’m in Chicago today.

After one cancellation and a delay I’m finally in Chicago. My sister and I arrived around 5:15 (Chicago Time, 4:15 Colorado Time) and I’m liking Chicago. I am really missing a some parts and people of Colorado but it was time for some change. I’m sure I’ll be back a lot and I plan to be back in October but until then I’ll be thinking of all of you and missing you all. On my visits home I’ll probably arrange some time to hang out with people but since they will be mostly over weekends I will probably have limited time so if we don’t get to hang out, don’t be offended. <3

It’s interesting. People are a lot more sociable and friendly here. At least 5-7 times tonight my sister and I had someone randomly talk to us about one thing or another. It was exciting. I like outgoing people and it made me talk to people randomly too. I am afraid that once my sister leaves I might become a bit of a home body but that is ok. We have a lot of work to do out here so I need to concentrate. Anyways. It’ll give me time to read and write and maybe draw if I am sure no one is looking.

Thanks again everyone for all the support. I needed it and with your help I got here.

<3

ps: youcandoit.

I am so exhausted today. I got a good amount of sleep but preparing for this move is making me tired as hell. I feel like I have a lot to do and I don’t really want to do any of it recently.

Things are going pretty well. I know that I have to leave and I know that this is going to be a good experience for me but I can’t help but think about how much I’m going to miss home and all the people here. Right when my Colorado life started to seem like it made some sense too. =-/ Luckily I am only 21 and there are quite a few more years in my life to try to find the exact direction I am heading. Really more than anything I am just incredibly thankful for the past couple weeks. While there has been a lot of stress over all that is going on with me and my work there has also been a great deal of happiness and a lot of new experiences. I feel a lot more open in my life and a lot more free. It’s strange how one person can make you realize things you hadn’t realized before, even if they were things other people have been saying to you for months or years. Thank you.

In thinking about the amount of days remaining I want to try to maximize them, make them the most people packed days I can, but I know that would just make my current situation more stressful and make me a lot less prepared for my trip. What I need to be doing right now is just relaxing, preparing and enjoying my last few days in Colorado for a while whether alone or with one or two people, I just need to breathe and love.

Sorry to anyone I haven’t gotten a chance to hang out with. I love you all and it isn’t intentional but I will be back occasionally and I will be back in October(ish).

Now. Time to really kick some ass on this software.